I AM CURRENTLY...
READING: UMINEKO, HARUHI SUZUMIYA LIGHT NOVEL, A TALE FOR THE TIME BEING .....
PLAYING: a LOT of stuff. but im mostly playing Disney Dreamlight Valley, Animal Crossing New Leaf, any survival horror games i can get my hands on (right now im playing the resident evil games), I want to play some final fantasy games, kingdom hearts, I am replaying yo-kai watch 3, and a lot of random ones in my library...you are better off checking my Backloggd, that's updated much more than here!
I spend a lot of my time: posting (obviously), daydreaming, taking photos, walking outside, drawing (when i can), reading, surfing the web, window shopping, writing fanfics, browsing wikipedia...finding sometimes obscure websites and blogs, playing puzzles, watching movies, watching youtube, documentaries, anime/cartoons, playing video games, practicing making music, reading visual novels, being overwhelmed, journaling, loving my mom and my cat, talking to my friends, meditating, collecting
OTHER HOBBIES: taking walks outside...not really much else...i want to get a stable job before i start doing hobbies, as i don't believe i deserve to indulge in them quite yet! maybe i'll pick back up journalling though!
♡ 🌻 (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) 🌻♡
I AM....
MULTIPLE THINGS + GIRLS + SOUNDS + 2000S CARTOON NETWORK + HOUSE MUSIC + PAINTINGS + OCEANS + LIGHTS + COLORS + WEIRDNESS + CUTE + FEELINGS + NOISES + SMELLS + WORDS + WORLDS + PLANETS + GALAXIES + ANIMALS + PLANTS + TECHNOLOGY + MEMORIES + EMOTIONS + DREAMS + ANYTHING POSSIBLE AND ABSOLUTELY NOTHING AT ALL BUT EVERYTHING TOO AND NOTHING AND YES AND NO AND CATS!!!...all combined into a form of a small girl. that's the best way to describe myself...though it's a never ending battle...so don't think about it much and just have a nice time looking at my online profile, okay? MY GOAL IN LIFE IS UNCLEAR AHAH BUT ID LOVE TO JUST DO WHATEVER AND EVERYTHING WHILE ALSO HAVING A CAL FUN LOVING TO MY SELF LIFE WITH SOME FRIENDS ((EVEN THOUGH ITS RLLY HARD) AND TRAVEL AND JUST ENJOY EVERYTHING I CAN BEFORE WE DIE ♪ I LOVE FULL EXPRESSION OF THE SOUL AND EXTREME POWERFUL ENIGMATIC FEELINGS. I LOVE THE UNKNOWN AND ASTRAL THINGS. I LOVE HYPNOSIS AND OTHER UNIVERSES AND BEING IN A TRANCE.....AIR HEADED.... I LOVE THINGS THAT I DO NOT KNOW... AND I KNOW EVERYTHING.... I AM AN EMBODIMENT OF CHAOS, NOSTALGIC FEELINGS, CREATIVITY AND IMAGINATION. I AM MANY FRAGMENTS AND PIECES OF SEVERAL CHARACTERS AND THINGS IN THE WORLD. I AM EXTREMELY EMOTIONAL AND LACK ANY EMOTIONS AT THE SAME TIME. I ALSO MAKE NO SENSE AND HAVE FREQUENT BREAKDOWNS. I AM IN A HORRIBLE MENTAL STATE LATELY SO PLEASE BE UNDERSTANDING. IM SORRY TO ANYONE IVE HURT DUE TO THAT, IN THE PAST OR PRESENT. I AM EXTREMELY DISCONNECTED FROM REALITY AND LIVE IN MY DELUSION AND DAYDREAMS, THIS WILL most LIKELY STAY TRUE FOREVER AND EVER....if you don't like me for whatever reason, i prefer you just forget i exist and block me because i will annoy you forever if you give me attention since i tend to hold grudges until amends are made, and i can not tell if im upsetting someone online. I am trying to get better at this, so its best to just leave me be. I am a wild animal. I LOVE EVERYONE EVEN IF I AM ANGRY AT YOU. ESPECIALLY IF YOU HURT ME. (IT DEPENDS ON WHO YOU ARE THOUGH. I HOLD INTENSE GRUDGES BUT I GET OVER THEM QUICKLY, DEPENDING ON IF I REALLY LIKE SOMEONE). I LOVE THE WORLD AND I LOVE ANIMALS AND GOD. I was once born in several other worlds in cartoon universes, or as an animal, or an angel, and now im forced to live as a boring human...(?) girl that somewhat retains her past memories. parts of my past selves or other selves are apart of me and control me, though.
MY DERE TYPES: KAMIDERE, BAKADERE, SUKUBE, NEMUIDERE, KUUDERE, TSUNDERE, HIMEDERE, NYANDERE....NOT A DERE, BUT I WOULD SAY IM A CHUUNIBYOU TOO!!!!!!
i aspire to have fun, learn everything i can, and enjoy my life no matter what i do or how hard it may be. i also want to help other people and share my creations and thoughts with the world, even if no one cares. right now, i'm not doing well at either. my brain is a jumbled mess.
LIKES: my comfort ship Lazlo x Edward (from camp lazlo, i also just really love CL it's my favorite show of all time), my little pony, higurashi + umineko, pokémon, hyperdimension neptunia, cats, the band N.E.R.D and The Neptunes, well written video essays, siblings + soulmates + twin pairings in fiction, the colors black and white + the symbolism (like yin/yang), tsunderes and himederes, enemies/rivals to lovers, sun x moon pairings, military history..history in general, monkeys, rhythm games, nostalgia (meaning the feeling and things that are personally nostalgic to me), the ocean + marine biology, spirituality, MARVEL + DC, nature + animals, biology, naturalism, space/astronomy, western cartoons and 2000s cartoon network, rap/hiphop and r&b (+ music & black culture in general), denpa themes in media, games and consoles (mainly nintendo and sega dreamcast), horror (luv psych horror and slashers!),yaoi and yuri shipping, NFL, disney and pixar, theme parks + rollercoasters, otaku culture (especially 2000s+2010s anime, guns, anime figures, and visual novels + eroge from all eras), drugs/pharmacology, fashion, philosophy, psychology + sociology, theology, manifestation, photography, mythology, literature and writing, meteorology, world history + civilizations, anthropology, demonology, monsters, folk tales...fairy tales, educational content of any form (especially kids educational content and in fun forms + documentaries + PBS) pro wrestling, films + tv, traveling, subscultures + alt communities (esp goth and emo), collecting, love in all forms, criminology, technology, viruses, commercials and bumpers, cut content/lost media, YTPS + YTPmvs, sparta remixes. I FIND JOY IN A LOT OF THINGS! I LIKE TO SAY EVERYTHING...to the point where it's overwhelming. but these are my most favorite things ever that i can think of!
DISLIKES
PPL WHO DON'T RESPECT OTHERS OR ANIMALS OR NATURE, BEING BOTHERED ABOUT STUFF I DONT CARE ABOUT, HARASSMENT, BULLIES. BEING BLOCKED ONLINE (everyone must become my loyal friend...). POSERS (though i appreciate them too? xD). FORGETTING THINGS. WHEN ITS WAY TOO HOT OR WAY TOO COLD, CENSORSHIP, BEING JUDGEMENTAL TO THINGS THAT R "UGLY" "GROSS" OR "WEIRD". SOCIETIAL RULES AND EXPECTATIONS. NOT GIVING PEOPLE SECOND CHANCES. TAKING THINGS TOO SERIOUSLY BUT ALSO NOT TAKIMG ANYTHING SERIOUS + OVER-IRONIC-NESS, ANYTHING THAT CONFINES ME FROM BEING HAPPY... PROFESSIONALISM, ORDER AND MAKING SENSE (tho, i can
understand it). INGENUINENESS. NEGATIVE ENERGY (duh, who even likes that? unless they were giving it out to ppl!) AND A LOT OF STUFF...BUT I DON'T LIKE TO FOCUS ON THE NEGATIVE. I ALSO REALLY REALLY DON'T LIKE BLACK OLIVES!!!!!
FAV MUSICAL ARTISTS
had to include this cause music is one of my biggest passions so HERE we go. They are mostly in order. The first few are my all time faves!: Thundercat!!!!!, KNOWER (+ Genevieve and Louis' solo work), Janelle Monae, N.E.R.D + The Neptunes (+ Pharrell and Chad as solo artists/producers), The Jet Age of Tomorrow, TLC (and Left Eye's solo work), KAYTRANADA, Puffy Amiyumi, Nirvana, Garbage, Fiona Apple, Poison Girl Friend, BlackDresses + Devi's stuff, PUFFY AmiYumi, Aaliyah, Brandy, The Black Eyed Peas, Blondie, Shakira, Tyler the Creator, Pierce The Veil, Doechii, Outkast, Beyonce + Destiny's Child, Ariana Grande, Mya, Megan Thee Stallion, Janet Jackson, Micheal Jackson, Rico Nasty, Doja Cat, Goreshit, Pinkpanthress, Britney Spears, Cassie, Selena, MF DOOM, Kittie, Amerie, Mariah Carey, Salt N Pepa, Brooke Valentine, SWV, Toxic Lipstick, Jack off Jill, Gwen Stefani + No Doubt...and a lot more but these r my faves that i listen to consistently. I like a lot of music genres. My favorite is R&B + alt r&b, rap + hiphop, anything electronic and really a lot black creators because a lot of music genres is inspired by them. I really love japanese music too, of many kinds. I love 90s music, and 2000s music...and 2010s...I really, really just love music.